My childhood nights

My childhood nights… are screaming and crying

Calling for me… to alter my world

To join a road… forsaking my path

So difficult it is… for me to abide

For my sisters are here… my mother and my kittens

The people I love… the snow and my mittens

So easy it is… for granddad to ask me

To sever the ties… and part with my family

In silence I weep… conquered by longing

Nostalgic I feel… and cry for belonging

Without the singer… the songs would shiver

And without the moon… the elegance shall wither

I raise my voice… and say in vigour:

" Granddad, I truly do…  have something bigger!!

So sorry I am… to decline your offer

I opt to stay… with my dearly mother

Even though life… is way too bitter

So sorry I am… for the gloom in your eyes,

And for your trembling fingers… wiping my tears"

My heart beats haste… and so does my pulse rate

I hold my breaths… inside my chest

And without delay… I whisper the rest:

"This fate of mine…

Was neither your fault…

Nor was it mine"